Step away…
I love to challenge myself, to meet new horizons. But sometimes, you have to take a few steps backwards, to make that forward journey. I am not talking about learning the same lessons over again. But finding yourself in new situations, and remembering you actually had this lesson already! So what to do? How to remind yourself that you don’t want to take those backward steps, and that you want to keep moving forward.
I realised that two things are relevant for me right now. My first challenge is to be impeccable with my speech. I have undertaken a challenge to not say a harsh word about anyone, and to not participate in gossip. It is poison that is being spread when you spread gossip. Do you know those people who never have a bad word to say about anyone? I want to be one of them! And I honestly believe it will actually make me think and feel differently.
The second challenge. To step out of the negative thoughts. The chatter that has occupied my mind. How easy is it to get caught up in your thoughts, and suddenly they become the truth. Well at least in your mind they do. Well I want to tell myself a different truth. A more positive one.
So…step away from the negative thoughts.
And remember what your mum always said….if you can’t say anything nice about someone….
Whatever…..
How easy is it to just say…yeah…whatever….when being confronted by a new learning, a moment of self awareness.
When someone is telling me about a problem, I am very good at the old cliche’s. You know, “it is what it is”, “tomorrow is another day”, “don’t take it personally”. Yep. I am good at giving those out. But I am not so good at taking them back! To the point, that in my mind, I am saying, “yeah, whatever”. That is usually a sign that I actually need to think about this situation more.
This is the stretching. This is when I really have to take note of my own advice. And man, does that hurt! Because I know I don’t do that well! But when I do, when I listen to my heart and I listen to my head, I can remember who I want to be. I can remember the reasons I so passionately share my values with other people. Because I need them back. I need other people to remind me of those things when I forget them, when I don’t behave authentically, when I am not living the values I so completely believe in.
So please remind me. Remind me gently of what I believe in, of who I want to be. Allow me to discover, to grow, to make mistakes and then rise above. Words can not explain the joy of this discovery.
So..whatever… 
